Waver.

In the past week I have been tracking my weight, and I have gone from 177.2 to 175.2. 2lbs down! I know this is a good thing, but for some reason I feel like I should be losing more. My confidence was wavering these past few days, and I was not sure if I could entirely trust the scale. But you know what, I think that my changes are making a difference. I feel better walking up the hill to my apartments, my skin looks better, my waist is getting a little thinner, and I think I can do this. I know that if I just keep this up I will see even more progress. With my current plan, there is not a way for me to gain weight when I am eating less calories than I burn. And when I do exercises and try to get activity in, it is a good thing for my body. So I know the plan works, many people have done it and I am eating a fairly balanced diet with a pretty consistent 1200-1300 calories a day.

I joined SparkPeople yesterday, and my username is PineappleThief. After watching success stories, it made me want to be a part and see what everyone on there does to lose weight and such. I think if I keep being active about my weight loss, I will feel more motivated and determined to succeed. I have about 8 more weeks before I go home for the holiday time, and I really want to help myself. I set a goal to get to 165 by November 13th, and I think I can do it. I am hoping of doing possibly better than that and getting to 160, but I do not want to feel discouraged if I don't. Either way, any weight loss is good as long as it is healthy weight loss!

It is kind of funny, but sometimes I feel like now that I am trying to be healthy, I have to force myself to get all the calories I need. Like I will eat around 900 calories and know that I need to eat up to 1200 to be on a healthy diet, and I really have to push myself. I drink a lot of hot tea, about a mug 2-3 times a day, and I think that fills me up really well. Like right now I am at 1149, and I cannot push myself to eat any more. And I dont want to push myself for fear that once I start, I wont be able to stop. So that is definitely something I did not expect to happen! And it has been like that for a while now. Even if someone made fresh chocolate cake or brownies with frosting or creme brulee,all of my faves, I could not do it. I feel too full for even a taste. It is strange, because I used to eat so much and still make room for dessert when there was physically no more room, and I would make myself sick. Weird!

 I hope that I can hit goal kind of soon, because I want to go shopping! :3

Dream big and live it up!
Love,
Erica